I'm starting the insanity workout

Ok so after having 3 children, my body didn't bounce back to its skinny self like it happens to some famous people. I have stretch marks and a really ugly looking muffin top and I am really sick of it, my youngest is now 2 years old and I can't use the "I just had a baby" excuse anymore.
I decided to blog my progress because otherwise I won't keep up with the workout and maybe this will give me a push to do my work out everyday. I chose to do insanity because I guess you can get faster results. I am not a person who likes to wait, I want results quick quick quick, like on my 1st workout quick. I know that is unrealistic but for some reason I still expect it.

 So I took some pictures today and I really don't want to post them.... but it's the only way to push myself,

I know I know I know... ( I cropped my face cause I looked really weird) but I am hoping that in 60 days my pictures will look way way better than this, and I really hope that I don't quit this workout because today was my first day and I did the fitness test and that thing kicked my butt, it took me about 1 hour to recover.

SO I will be updating my progress every Tuesday, we will see how it all goes.

twist's homemade hoodie (fresh beat band)

We all love the fresh beats at my house so we recently celebrated my son's and daughter's birthday with a fresh beat band / rockstar theme party. I looked everywhere for a hoodie that would resemble twist's but had no luck. I then decided to make it myself.
It was extremely difficult to find a plain yellow hoodie (which is ridiculous) but I finally came across one at target and even though it's not exactly what I was looking for, I was running out of time so I had to get it.

I went through my give away clothes and found a yellow and a blue shirt that didn't fit my kids no more, I grabbed some lids and cups from the kitchen, a pen, scissors and of course my stitch witchery.
 I traced out the shape of the from pocket on a piece of paper and cut it out of the blue giveaway shirt.
Then using my lids I drew the shape of twist's patch design on the yellow giveaway shirt and started cutting (which was not a fun task).
Then using my stitch witchery I cut out the shape of the circles (also not fun) and applied them to the back of the circles and with a wet cloth and how iron I put it all together.
Once the patch was made I again used my stitch witchery to attach it to the hoodie.

those are not stains, it's just wet.

I was pretty happy with the end result. I was so excited for my son to wear it ...... then the day came and my son refused to wear it :(
I pretty much did all the work for nothing :(
But it's all good, at least I proved to my self that I am more crafty than I thought I was :)

Fresh beat band / rockstar birthday party

So the day finally came and we had a great time celebrating my son's 5th and my daughter's 2nd birthday. We all had a blast, and I asked that all the kids and adults dress as rock stars or as one of the fresh beats. I really wanted to get a fbb rockstar jacket for my kids but they were all out and etsy was selling them too pricy.
I homemade most of the decorations as there are not much fbb party decorations out there, plus I like homemaking things. My husband made the cake and I shaped them as guitars, I made the pinatas myself (which I am so super proud of). We had taco salads for food (those were a hit)
Here are the pictures:


I got inflatable guitars ,microphones and rockstar glasses  for the kids

 I decorated the party bags with thank u cards

 I made some musical notes table pieces

I hung stars from the ceiling

We had taco salads

I was so happy to see all the party guests dressed as the fresh beats and as rockstars

My guitar pinatas were great, they held up so well and every kid was able to take a whack at them multiple times before it broke.

My nieces and nephews dancing to the fresh beat songs

We had 2 cakes, one for my son and one for my daughter, the cakes were graham cracker with chocolate ganache and marshmallow frosting, it was delicious to say the least.

 My birthday babies

My kids loved them.

 We got a drum set for my son

We had so much fun taking pictures on the stage backdrop.

Over all the party was awesome and a great memory for my kids and I.

guitar pinata.

My kid's birthday is coming up so I decided to do a fresh beat band theme party, I saw a guitar pinata online that I wanted to buy but it was over $50.00 I was not gonna pay that much so I decided to do it myself and I think that it turned out better than the one I wanted to buy online.
I had a flat screen t.v box in my garage so I used that, I'm into arts and crafts so I already had glue, ribbon, tissue paper and other things.

First I hand drew the shape of the guitar on the cardboard box, then I cut it using a box blade, I then traced it to the other side of the box so that I could have 2 identical pieces.

Then, I cut out strips from what was left of the box and I used them for the sides. I taped it all with duck tape( I used alot of it to make sure it didn't come apart)

   I used more duck tape than the picture shows.(way more)

 I decided to also do paper mache on top of it just to make it extra strong ( the paper mache didn't stick much to the duck take so next time I'll make sure to use longer pieces of paper for the paper mache to make sure there is no lifting on the tape parts)

After letting it dry for a day, I started to decorate it and I am very happy with the final product, I guess the real test will be once the kids start going at it ( but that's not for another 2 weeks)

I made sure to reinforce the strap because I will be hanging it from it for the party, I also made sure to leave an opening on top so that I can put the candy in. I made the opening on the same side as the strap so that the candy doesn't fall out once we hang it.
I learned a few things from making this, next time I will make the strings longer so that they don't end right where the black circle is (cause that's not how they really are), I will also make sure that the strap is on the right place so that it doesn't hang funny, you will see once I post pictures of the birthday in 2 weeks :)

UPDATE: They held up great, they were sturdy and everyone loved them.

Nights like tonight.

I couldn't sleep tonight, so I went on facebook to pass the time and I saw a couple of posts that just hit me hard, not because they are sad or anything like that, but because I was jealous, yes I know it's pathetic and wrong, I know this. I just couldn't help to feel it.

The posts were about kids who are the same age as my Elijah, they were just normal things that kids do and one video hit me hard,a girl that I used to work with posted a video of her 5 year old sending a message to her grandma and she looked so beautiful and charming talking, and it just hit me that MY Elijah is gonna be 5 in a few weeks and my baby still doesn't speak...... I know it's wrong for me to be jealous, I know it but I can't help it. I know that it's ok and that God has everything under control............. but I am just so afraid that I might never be able to have a conversation with my baby, I wanna hear his voice, I wanna tell him a joke, I want him to tell me a joke, I want him to express his feelings to me, I just want to have a conversation with my baby and I can't. I know that there are people that have it worst and I know that there are people who would think that I am lucky that my baby is healthy, I know this ... but tonight I'm sad, I'm just sad. I know that by tomorrow I'll feel really silly for this post, but right now, I'm just sad.

........

....ever have one of those days when you just feel like a failure as a parent??
..... today is mine.

halloween? christmas? ???????

Growing up I didn't celebrate halloween or christmas, I remember that when I was very young, my grandpa used to put a christmas tree and decorate his house and he would also buy us all presents. When I was around 7(I think, maybe younger) we stop celebrating it. I remember them saying something about it being a pagan holiday so as soon as I heard the word pagan I knew that it ment not from God but from the devil so I was ok with not celebrating anymore. I never felt like I was missing out on anything. At school after the christmas break I always heard my friends talking about all the gifts they got and honestly I never felt left out or sad for not getting gifts myself, or for not being able to dress up for halloween, it never affected me, somehow I understood that it wasn't something that we should do. Once I got married, I was reintroduced to christmas and honestly I started to forget why I didn't celebrate it, I learned that people knew that Jesus wasn't really born on December and that they just choose to celebrate him on that day anyway. I was ok with it and I started to go along with it but I always felt weird about it and I was never really at peace with myself for it. I still don't celebrate halloween and I will never celebrate it, nor let my kids celebrate it either, I am very thankful that my husband is supported of my decision, he might think I am a little weird for thinking its pagan but he backs me up.

Today, someone posted a link on facebook that talked about why christians shouldn't celebrate halloween, I clicked on it and I was reminded that halloween is a big no no. This got me thinking about christmas and so I did some research, I know that I shouldn't believe everything I read online but I read this article that is full of scriptures from the bible  ( and the bible I do believe) and it talks about why God doesn't want us to celebrate this holidays. I now have so much doubt inside of me as to why I should continue to celebrate christmas, I never felt right about it and now I feel even worst about it, I feel like I need to pray and ask God for discernment, because I just don't wanna be doing things that go against God's will.

God's word is clear: 

Thessalonians 5:21-22—“Test everything. Hold on to the good. Avoid every kind of evil.”
 James 1:27—“keep oneself from being polluted by the world”
 3 John 1:11—“do not imitate what is evil”
3 John 1:11—“do not imitate what is evil”
Romans 12:9—“abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good.”
Deuteronomy 18:9-14—do not learn to imitate detestable ways, including spiritists, sorcerers and witchcraft
Ephesians 5:11-12—“Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness” / “live as children of light”
1 Timothy 4:1—don’t ”follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons”
2 Corinthians 6:14-17—“what fellowship can light have with darkness?”
1 Corinthians 11:1—“follow the example of Christ”
1 Corinthians 10:31—“whatever you do, do everything for the glory of God"
 (Christiananswers.net)

and then I read this:

 Jeremiah 10:1-4

10 Hear what the Lord says to you, people of Israel. ² This is what the Lord says:

“Do not learn the ways of the nations
    or be terrified by signs in the heavens,
    though the nations are terrified by them.
³ For the practices of the peoples are worthless;
    they cut a tree out of the forest,
    and a craftsman shapes it with his chisel.
⁴ They adorn it with silver and gold;
    they fasten it with hammer and nails
    so it will not totter.

I feel like this can't be any more clear and that our mighty Lord is trying to show me something by putting all of this in my heart, now I just need to pray and ask for discernment and wait for his truth to rain upon me and show me the way.
I want to be able to teach my children what is from God and not from this world, I don't want them growing up filled with lies, I want to raise them based on the truth, the truth from God.